Friday, February 03, 2006

Idle Hands DO NOT Equate To Idle Thoughts

When one handles a business left to you by your Dad or immediate family member. The initial thoughts would be,



"am i cut for this?"

"can i do this?"

"will i make a stupid slip and fall, dragging the entire 35-year history of a company?"

"will i be able to put a hand on my waist and boss people around in full boss-gusto?"

"will i still be able to play my network games now that i'm boss??"

silly yeah.. but lately, the tumultuous series of events doth seem to make itselves apparent. (itselves by the way, is a coined term I use, I hardly hear anyone else use such so I suggest you don't lest you be scolded by your grammar profs..) The workloads is not that stressful, it's the management that makes it stressful. It was a good thing at a certain point in life, I found my recluse, a sanctuary.

I never thought that lately would spell a big difference in my life. For once, I let my guard down, I let another entity take on the manifold task of running and sharing my life agenda with.. it's a bit scary yeah.. TOO scary for me because i may not be a control freak the way most schizos are wont in doing, but I sure have a control of my own preset world...until I allowed a great change to happen.

It was like a combination of fear and insecurity..a feeling of being there but not exactly being there..it's a learning process--a seemingly eternal progress of education all over again, one that I have no regrets wotsoever in trying to accomplish.

question is...just how many souls out there would understand putting up with me.. the answer was positive enough..it was in fact reassurring.. hope so... you never really know wot possible good tidings you're getting into until you've made a wise choice to be patient and wait after the weather clears..

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